Larger context for LACK in Corpus USbrown_UKbncw/US_brown.txt
There are millions who accept this doctrine, but few indeed are those who accept it so truly that the fate of humanity lies as a weight on their souls night and day.
This group in Park Place Church was made up of the earnest few.
I was drawn deeper and deeper into these concerns and responsibilities.
I engaged more and more in religious activities.
Besides Church and Sunday School I went to out-of-door meetings on the sidewalk at the church door.
I went to an afternoon service at the YMCA.
I went to the Christian Endeavor Society and to the evening service of the church.
lack > Much of this lack ed the active support of the pastor.
The young people were self-energizing, and I was energized.
Once or twice my father asked me if I wasn't overdoing a bit in my churchgoing.
Meanwhile I myself was not yet saved.
At least I had been unable to lay hold on the experience of conversion.
Try as I might to confess my sins and accept salvation, no answer came to me from heaven.
Finally, after years, I gave up.
The basic difficulty, I suppose, was in my ultimate inability to feel a burden of sin from which I sought relief.
I was familiar with Pilgrim's Progress, which I read as literature.