Larger context for LACK in Corpus USbrown_UKbncw/US_brown.txt
This group in Park Place Church was made up of the earnest few.
I was drawn deeper and deeper into these concerns and responsibilities.
I engaged more and more in religious activities.
Besides Church and Sunday School I went to out-of-door meetings on the sidewalk at the church door.
I went to an afternoon service at the YMCA.
I went to the Christian Endeavor Society and to the evening service of the church.
Much of this lacked the active support of the pastor.
The young people were self-energizing, and I was energized.
Once or twice my father asked me if I wasn't overdoing a bit in my churchgoing.
Meanwhile I myself was not yet saved.
At least I had been unable to lay hold on the experience of conversion.
Try as I might to confess my sins and accept salvation, no answer came to me from heaven.
Finally, after years, I gave up.
The basic difficulty, I suppose, was in my ultimate inability to feel a burden of sin from which I sought relief.
I was familiar with Pilgrim's Progress, which I read as literature.
No load of sin had been laid on my shoulders, nor did earnest effort enable me to become conscious of one.
There is, of course, the doctrine of original sin, which asserts that each of us as individuals partakes of the guilt of our first ancestor.
In the rhyming catechism this doctrine is worded thus: "In Adam's fall We sin-ned all".
This doctrine was repugnant to my moral sense.